been thinking a lot these few days.. is my presence in this world make a difference or maybe that if i never appear the world will also be the same.. this world wont stop turning because i n0t appeared.. if i am so insignificant than maybe i should n0t appear in this world at the first place.. having me in this word is juz bring disater to those people that n0e me and is cl0se ti me.. whu am i choosen to be in this world at the first place why cqant i juz n0t being in this world at the first place.. i am only a disater to people.. why cant we choose whether if we were willing to live in the world n0w.. living in the world n0w is such a tiring thing.. especially toward my life N0W..